Wednesday, July 05, 2006
hello..
im been thinking something through something quite serious ..i guess..and i really need u all to help me ..
its a case between a should i??or should i not??
here it goes..
To all those who consider me a fren...continue reading:
im been thinking it through and i really dont know...
i was one in pri school and it was fun..
but everyone finds it stupid..
the process might not be worth it..
humiliation is the worse..
i dont want to face it again..
ms wang alwwayz told me to make my own decision cause my mum has been making alot of them for me..
instances:
my mum decided i shuld go em2 instead of em1..when i was right fully (die..die) must go em1..
ms wang wanted to write a whole kinda thing to so called nominate me to go NUS high ..
but mum refused..
mum refused to do DSA to anderson...
and she sent me toPL!!
so ..shouldnt i make this decision on my own..
anyway..i asked mum..and she was like "NO"
i almost cried..tt showed how much i really wanted it..
but im afraid..
afraid that ppl wouldnt want me..
wont choose me..
i get eliminated??
and worse still..no wants wants to sign the form thingy..
i dont think ill be able to face??
today..a few ppl asked me..are u going to try it out..
and i was like i dont know..and they told me..they were..
when they asked me ..were they thinking like .."i htink she is "
or were they just asking everyone...u know...
i want to be able to survive sec school with frens..
and maybe this might make stuff worse??will it??
but there i sjealousy in me..
so right now..i just want to know..from you ppl..
will you back me up??
cause the way i see ..if i have no support..might as well forget aboout it..
i dont know..what do you all think???
if you dont understand what im talking abt..
i know it looks dumb..but it really has a meaning..
*I'm lost ..and I don't know what to do!!*
2:19 AM;
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